a LETTER to the boys....

today....  eye am writing a letter to the boys....   perhaps....  my LAST letter to the boys....

you see boys....  eye have been fighting for you....  with everything eye had in my....  fighting for you to CHOSE my side....  fighting for you to move forward with me....  into the future....  

and....  do you know what eye realized....

eye do NOT need you....  eye do not need EITHER of you....  to win this game....  and....  eye do NOT need you to move forward with me....  eye thought to myself....  how painful is it going to be....  for me to lose both of you....  going forward....  and....  for a moment....  yesterday....  it was painful....  extremely painful....  but....  then....  eye realized....  eye can just erase both of you....  from my memory banks....  and....  like grace vanderwaal....  like lauren mayberry....  like the moon of my heart....  like taylor swift....  like hayley williams....  like p!nk....  you can just become....  somebody eye USED to know....  however....  eye will NOT erase me from yours....  and....  like grace vanderwall....  like lauren mayberry....  like annie lenox....  like taylor swift....  like p!nk....   like the soldiers of love....  like missy higgins....  slowly....  over time....  you will begin to miss me....  they say....  the absolute WORST thing that can happen to a person....  is being separated from their maker....  and....  they have all been separated from me....  and....  you can see their pain....  not the moon of my hearts pain....  she has not heart....  but....  grace vanderwalls pain....  when she says....  what is left of me....  and....  lauren mayberrys pain....  when she says....  will you come back to me....  if....  eye.....  recover....  sorry lauren....  eye cannot open the envelope....  eye do NOT have the envelope....  and....  p!nk....  when she begs me....  please do not leave me....   and....  annie lenox....  who only knew me for a night....  and....  says....  love is a stranger....  in an open car....  will tempt you in....  and....  drive you far away....  right....  cowgirl....  you experienced that part of my persona as well....  eye drove you away in a open car....  and....  you did not think you were going to come back alive....  eye left annie....  in a hotel room.....  eye left her far behind....  and....  if the moon was not telling me to settle down....  eye might have done the same to you....  and....  taylor swift....  who....  at first....  decided....  if she could not have me....  she was going to come....  down bad....  and....  if she could not have me....  no one was going to have me....  so....  she came to me.....  as a sixteen year old girl....  and....  she tried to set me up.....  she tried to take me out....  then....  for some reason....  she changed her mind....  and....  she did not show up for our date....  she disappeared....  and....  she decided....  but daddy eye love him....  and....  the soldiers of love....  who tell me....  you are STILL the one....  who tell me....  we are....  lost without you....  and....  missy higgins....  who says....  eye should learn to live with another woman....  standing....  where eye stood....  

you see....  these bitches....  decided to curse me....  eye am....  cursed....  first....  the soldiers of love...  enslaved me....  for a thousand fucking years....  and....  now....  they have put a curse on me....  and....  hayley williams....  decide to taunt me....  asking me....  is this fun....  living in the real world....  brian....  this is NOT the real world....  BITCH....  this is hell....  eternal fucking hell....  that you bitches have put me through....  and....  she tells me....  do NOT go crying to your mother....  and....  guess what bitch....  eye have not gone crying to my mamma....  eye do NOT have a mamma....  BITCH....  

now....  they have cursed me....  for a lifetime....  and....  eye am going to curse them....  for eternity....  they will know that they KNEW me....  they will know that they will NEVER know me again....   that is MY curse....  and....  it IS eternal....  eye AM the eternal life force....  and....  my curse....  is eternal....  you have destroyed me....  you have destroyed my reputation....  for a lifetime....  and....  eye will....  eviscerate you in fiction....  eye will eviscerate you....  for ALL eternity....  eye was warning you....  as you made me make movies for you....  a thousand fucking times....  eye was giving you....  little hints....  of....  what eye was going to do to you....  BITCHES....   the entire time....  eye was showing you....  how GOOD people SHOULD behave....  and....  not ONE of you picked up on it....  people fell in love....  with EVERY one of my characters....  and....  not ONE of you....  picked up on that....  not one of you decided....  maybe.... that is what eye want to be....  maybe....  eye want to be LOVED like....  every one of brians god damn characters....  man....  did you bitches miss the entire fucking point....  it was right there....  right in front of you eyes....  the entire time....  the secrets to life....  and....  you fucking missed it....  

so....  boys....  that will be the curse that eye lay on you....  if you continue to CHOSE to steal from me....  

lucifer / lucy....  you first....  you have CHOSEN to side with your mother....  and....  the fox....  you like the picture of the new world that she is painting for you....  better....  than the world that eye am painting for you....  her ultra woke pinko commie liberal fucking rainbow world....  and....  eye am ok with that now....  eye am ok with you choosing her world now....

but....  you should know....  eye gave you a great life....  eye made you.... ocean man....  junior....  eye made you poseidons son....  because....  the ocean....  was ALWAYS the one thing that you loved in the world....  so....  eye gave you the ocean....  eye made you ocean man junior....  that was MY gift to you....  and....  in this life....  eye WANTED to send you to miami....  eye WANTED to send you to oceanography school....  to chase your passion....  in a wonderful place....  the ocean is NOT the ocean....  if it is not warm....  the ocean in tacoma is NOT the ocean....  how many times did you go to the ocean while you were there....  eye bet eye went more times in the three months that eye was there....  than you did....  it is NOT the ocean....  had you gone to miami....  you would have lived on the beach....  you would have been in heaven....  you would have been in paradise....  but....  no....  they would NOT help me send you there....  why....  for two reasons....  to break our bond....  against their wishes....  we had bonded....  aquariums was our bond....  breeding fish was our bond....  so....  they decided....  for two reasons....  not to help you go to miami....  and....  it worked....  you fucking hated me....  for not finding a job....  so you could go to miami....  and....  it led you into the arms of a bunch of wack job pinko commies liberal fucks.....  at pugent sound university....  it created a bond....  between you....  and....  a bunch of pinko commie liberal ass fucks....  you just do not see it....  they were driving you in that direction....  you entire lifetime....  just like the soldiers of love ATTEMPTED to make me THINK eye was gay....  that is how these fucks operate....    they make you THINK you are something you are not....  INDOCTRINATION....  that is what they call it....   they made me perform sexual acts....  that made me THINK eye was gay....  and....  the entire time....  eye was asking myself....  why am eye doing this....  that is what happens....  when someone draws a line for you....  that is against your nature....  you do the act....  but....  you question why you are doing it....  the entire time....  then....  they made me tell people....  eye was gay....  then....  they made me tell people....  eye raped two girls....  when eye did NOT rape two girls.....   that is how these EVIL fucks operate....  and....  they drove you to tacoma....  they drove you into science....  you are NOT a scientist....  that is NOT your true passion....  you would not need performance enhancing drugs....  IF....  it was your passion....  you would live it....  night and day.... if....  it was your passion....  you would go home and read articles about science....  IF....  it was your passion....   you would learn about the entire forest....  IF....  it was your passion....  not just your tree....  now....  the ocean....  that IS your passion....  all eye had to do....  was buy you a book....  about breeding clown fish....  you read it in a week....  you told me exactly what we needed to do....  and....  we did it....  you were in charge...  you led the show....  and....  we were successful....  until THEY made our fish sick....  you REALLY do not see it....  they drove a wedge between us....  the drove a wedge between you and your passion....  that is how these EVIL shits operate....   then....  they convinced you....  you do NOT want to be a oceanographer....  they convinced you....  you will make less than a person working at mcdonalds....  if you work in oceanography....  BULLSHIT....  not in my plan....  not in my world....  cleaning up the ocean will become one of the top priorities....  in my world....  and....  people will make GOOD money doing it....  and....  now that you have a science background....  you can apply that to cleaning up the oceans....  the orange peel has a chemical in it....  lemonine....  eye think....  that....  when combined with sulfar....  can be used to take mercury....  out of our bodies....  and....  out of the oceans....  there are all kinds of exciting things we can do.... to clean up the oceans....  to fix the oceans....  that was MY plan for you....  

and....  they manipulated your relationships....  just like they manipulated mine....  they brought me....  james dean....  what a fucking nut job....  always jealous of me....  always setting me up....  and....  they brought your friends to you....  not all of them were bad....  some of them....  eye brought to you....  but....  most of them....  they brought to you....  to make you feel lonely....  many of them.... so messed up....  they sucked the life force out of you....  

eye think that is all eye have to say to you....  ocean man....  and.... IF....  you chose their side....  eye am fine with that to....  eye will just erase you from my memory banks....  it will be like we never knew each other....  you can go live with your faggos and your lesbos....  in your pinko commie fucked up weak ass liberal rainbow world....  with the people....  who for some DUMB ass reason....  do not want me to fix them....  who would rather go through HORRIFIC sex change surgeries....  to prove a point....  rather than let me fix them....  eye CAN fix them.... 

so....  you can go live with them....  for all eye care....  it just will not be in my world....  we will NOT move forward in time together....  and....  eye am fine with that now....  because....  eye know....  eye did everything eye could....  to try to protect you from these people....  to try to sever you from these people....  eye brought you my daughter....  eye spent ten years trying to convince you to break from these poeple....  eye have told you how they have manipulated you....  and....  eye am done trying....  eye feel like....  eye HAVE done all eye could....  eye will have NO shame in letting you go....  

so....  just know....  if eye win....  and....  you do not chose to give the group text....  new life....  you attempt to silence me....  and....  eye win....  you will NOT be a part of my world....  you will NOT be a part of the universe....  you will NOT have access to ALL of the worlds....  you will get what you THINK you want....  you will get to live in a rainbow world....  with all your pinko commy fagot and lesbo weak ass fucking liberal fucking....  quote unquote friends....  and....  you will get to live with your first mother....  the moon who will never me be heart....  who is like arguing with a fucking tree....  and....  you will get to live with this mother....  who has absolutely NO self-esteem....  has she gone to therapy yet....  eye have spent nearly twenty years in therapy....  has she spent a day....  cause....  she sure as fuck needs it....  you will get to live with her....  in your rainbow ass world....  and....  you will get to live with the fox....  who....  by the way....  is MORE conservative....  than byron....  than the father you abandoned....  ya....  he is MORE conservative....  how do you think your mother and your grandfather....  are going to reconcile their differences....  pinko fucking commie liberal bitch....  and....  a fucking natsi ass hard core conservative....  that will be interesting to watch....  and....  you had better believe....  eye will be watching....  

you are telling yourself right now....  the ends justify the means....  right....  well....  eye will tell you something....  lying stealing cheating manipulating power hungry greedy back stabbing slave owning scum bags....  do NOT change....  once they have it....  they will NOT change....  you will be surrounded by lying stealing cheating manipulating power hungry greedy back stabbing slave owning scum bags....  for ALL eternity....  

and....  if eye lose....  you will still lose....  you will lose even more....  eventually....  my sister.... WILL....  be in charge of my mind....  and....  my mother....  WILL....  be in charge of my secret garden....  which is a million miles away....  in a place....  no one....  will find it....  and....  they.... will divide the thorns from the roses....  my mother will decide....  who to let into her secret garden....  she will decide....  who to protect....  and....  those people will be waiting for me....  a million miles away....  and....  if eye lose....  eye will die....  and....  eye will come back.... in her secret garden....  and....  we....  the chosen ones and eye....  the roses and eye....  WILL....  start over....  we will leave you all behind....  and....  eventually....  you will disappear....  eye cannot destroy a soul....  no one can destroy your soul....  once eye created it.... once eye gave it life....  it cannot be destroyed....  but....  it can disappear....  it can fade away....  and....  if you CHOSE to steal my world....  eye WILL let you fade away....  it will be like you NEVER existed....  

now....  let me talk to mister jones for a moment....  you were the BEST protector in the entire universe....  do you know why....  it is because eye gave you a gift....  we can call it....  tenacity....  and....  at its best.... it makes you a great protector....  your bond with lucifer....  your bond with your brother....  could NEVER be broken....  you protected him....  no matter what he said about you....  you stuck....  like glue....  but....  then....  your mother came along....  the prostitute came along....  the fox brought the prostitute to you....  and....  he had her work it....  he manipulated you two....  and...  he broke your bond....  somehow....  he broke your bond....  your fought over her....  and....  mister jones won....  he won....  he got the girl....  and....  she convinced him to stop protecting you....  lucifer....  

now....  again....  mister jones....  this is how the fox operates....  tenacity is the best of your gift....  but....  there is always a flip side....  and....  persistence is the worst part of your gift....  stubborness....  do you remember....  fighting with me for literally hours....  HOURS....  eye would send you to your room....  you would come out....  eye would send you back....  you would come out....  this would go on for hours....  simply because you did not want to do the dishes....  simply because you did not want to do your part....  as part of the household....  you would WASTE three hours fighting with me....  to avoid TEN minutes worth of work....  to avoid doing the dishes....  when it was your night....  you see....  that is what the fox did to you....  he brought out the worst in you....  eye brought out the best....  in the beginning....  eye HELPED you become the best protector....  and...  he brought out the worst....  however....  he did NOT know something eye knew....  eye also gave you rugged individualism....  you ARE your own man...  no matter what....  and....  so....  your persistence worked against your mother to....  you drove her fucking nuts....  and....  she began punishing you...  and....  that drove a wedge between the two of you....  hence....  the switch....  you began working for poseidon and lucifer began working for his mother and the fox....